lailai..buybuy..hahah..

psp cover, light blue ..very nice ..

lcd,umd cover,the monitor? memory stick place

charger, memory stick , 4 gb and 2 gb(m2 adapter) , emergency charger(psp,nintendo,gameboy sp),battery pack .. all i dont use anymore .. i think i want buy new psp .. and very messy all this thing..

clean my room and find all this thing...nvm.. memory stick and battery pack i take..today so sian ..hmm.. nothing to do at home .. later hope someone will chat with me at msn .. arh .. boriing ..k lh, bye for now ..

im sori

this is a video,at my grandfather house..it kinda lame,but funny yknow..just watch and you'll see..hmm..now,i really sad,and yeah,i regret everything..i really am sori..i want to achieve my goal in life,i have turn over a new chapter in my life..i gonna concentrate on my studies,and be succesful,make you happy..not gonna dissapoint you,no more..im just sorry..im not a good son i guess..

monyet pe?


emo.. kwang3..

shukri , mujahid (neighbour last time)

ytd , i go braddel, irsyad..with mujahid, solihin , shukri.. follow my fren buy his school book at al irsyad..after buy books we go mosque near their school, after pray..slack at voideck? wait for munir,fikri,faiz,hafizh,umair.. went to shop to buy something, then see them at the same shop ..after tht ..chitchatchitchat .. and off we go.. i follo solihin,hafizh and shukri go far east shopping centre.. while the rest go yewtee..

go orchad follow hafizh buy psp .. then i tought have enough time go yewtee.. suddenly reach there around 5 .. wth!! afteer tht go home take bus , 106 .. and then at home get scolded a bit ..haha.. after tht , i was damn dizzy and want to vomit ..i eat dinner , then rest , listen music..

hey .. so ytd, morning i follow shukri to jurong point take back his phone.. after that we go cck meet irsyad people ... shukri see mujahid, his neighbor last time .. hahah.. then go street soccer see them play soccer .. then go home after that .. me fahmi solihin and shukri ..

after tht at night msn together with hafizh mujahid shukri , and some girl , afifa,nurai,nana .. haha .. all the girl leeft the conversation .. they talk nonsense but funny ..

so today early in the morning went out .. hahaha .. change my cast .. 2 more weeks to open ..
the doktor was damn violent with my hand.. argh ..maybe i cant go cck tomorrow .. hahhha.. rest at home..

so should i move on or should i wait?

hey.let talk about yesterday.

so i meet mujahid at cck mrt station around 11.50..then we both go braddel..we gg friday prayers at mosque(muhajirin) near their school(irsyad)..when we reach bradel..we go mosque in meet fren..after pray go one voiddeck..there we play taiti and lots more..faiz,munir,fikri,adil,mujahid,fiikri,syafiq,hafizh,umair..then me buy icemints ..

after that we go yewtee..adil and umair go hoome..there have ahmad and solihin..we lepak at carpark..then me and hafizh bought somewthing..then play soccer until 6.35 like tht..then go home take mrt with mujahid,hafizh,ahmad saifuddin..mee and mujahid go jurongeast and the rest marinabay one..mujahid stop at cck..me bukit batok..reach home around 7.25 like tht..

hmm..haaha..i feel like i miss someone..

so today i must go yewtee again..because of someone who put his wallet inside my beg yesterday..so i meet ahmad..and we go munir house..imujahid was there..then suddenly hafizh came..we play pes first..i fight mujahid..1-1..pro..even when my arm is like shit now...then we go street soccer meet faizz..give him his wallet..playy taiti awhile then i go..

i guess..im to young to understand wat love really are..

morning

let talk bout ytd nnight..okay,so i cried a bit oni,got dust go in my eye..haha..haizz..so the whole night i was sad,and yeah,hafizh help entertain me on msn..he everytime call me stupidd..haha..i guess im stupid at something though..after tht,i toold him,im nt sad,n i want to talk to someone at night..so he said we can talk on the phone at night..he msg me at 12.20 midnight , then i called him.we ended our call around 2.40 .

first he ask me alot of thing bout something,most of the answer i gve he call me stupid..haha..and he tell me bout his love life.hehe.funny sial.and he call me weak also,coz i crack my bone..so we cant fight arh i guess..sorri2..if i okay thn we fight..hmm..i miss..i miss when he said everything about our past,i cry bit..memories oyy..hafizh you remember, 6 ihsan rox..remember the time,we always draw when fighting..hehe..haizz..

hmm..chan young..i want to thanks you for all the beautiful idea u give me last tiime..i still remember it but i guess i wont need those thing anymore...sketchbook,candle thingy,100 day,200 days, 364 day..i guess it does not even reach 100 days..and now it's too late already.. and yeah, i want you guys too watch 'LOVE ACTUALLY' ..it is and old movie,2003 i guess..but it is sweet..tht is the show chan young ask me to watch..

it ended just like tht..

i miss them so much, lester jordan chris

and i miss her

today actually im going yew tee meet my fren,i ask my mom she allow..then suddenly,it started raining..and my mom ask me to stay at home..so boring..so i stay at home watch movie online and watch inuyasha..haizz..i feel very lonely now..arh..wtf!..so at the end of the month i gg out with hafizh,buy bag and shoes and school thing..he ask me buy together with him..haha..kling boy..

hmm tomorow want go out?haha if can of coz lh..sit at home do the same thing only..i want go yew tee and take my stuff..my bag with munir...i want take my bag!!my things is running out..

to someone,

i love you,

i miss you

2 december 2009

mujahid and me after i play soccer

so i crAck a bone in my right arm coz i play soccer..let me tell u the story..i and my fren play soccer at limbang..and wee play suddenly i got hit by a ball,it was damn painfull i can say..so i try to cool my self down..7.15 then i went home..i tell my mom and we goo check my arm..arh..i hope very fast recover..

something unexpected happen to me yesterday..haha..i was so damn unlucky..irysad people knew it..hehe..when school reopen i hope it still there..llol..

are you avoiding me nowadays?

i dont really feel ur presence anymore

do you even know,

how much i love you,

how much i miss you?

how much i care about u?

you are not like before,

that's for sure

tomorow go limbang again arh..dont want sit at home..we do our normal thing arh..soccer lepak and yeah..i cant go back after 7..must reach home before 7..

ytd was fun,was damn2 fun..i go yewtee to meet my irsyad fren and play soccer..=))miss them so much..hehe..hmm..we same same arh,tk sangke satu2 perangai..kk..so i come there meet ahmad outside yewtee mrtstation..wan go munir hse then no one answer ..so ask mujahid to meet,go near the street soccer..and then me,mujahid,ahmad..sit2 together..then talk2..best lh i can say..then i was damn shocked..HAHA..cannot take it deh..betul nye kawan arh satu2..

wait for fikri..then wait for munir,fahmi come also..haha..fun sei..i dont have mood play soccer,hmm..coz of something..i only play like 2 game i think..then go pray at munir house then,go home..

1 way 2 say 3 word

how could this happen to me?

hmm..today was a boring day..nothing much..as usual,suddenattack with shukri..then after that play ninja game..so,today never chat with 'someone' at all..i know im being iritating ytd,i just want to know where i went wrong..u know?everyday,we getting further from each other?haizz..i wish i can be a perfect guy..but,nobody is perfect..and i am that nobody..i just want you to know,no matter wat,my feeling for u will never change..NEVER!

so,tomorrow wat the plan?maybe meeting irsyad fren,mujahid,munir,fikri,solihin,ahmad.so we gonna,play soccer,lepak2?that will be good..i dont want sit home think too much of you..make my brain hurt,and make my heart hurts to..

'i seriously miss you,do you know that,ltlP'

hmm..ytd talk to sygg..we talk bout something..

and..now i really scared she ask for break up..

zzz..noob me..but nvm..

later when c her again,i tell her everything..

for now cannot tell wat i want do to her..

supprise?yeah..haha..

sayang,i really love you eh..

like wat i promised you last time,

i'll love you forever..

now i really miss you lh,

everyday i dream of you=.=

i wish our relationship can last forever,

i dont want last long..haha..=))

bukit batok nature park..lepak..

burhan arafat talz
relax arh boy..

hmm..now nite..so just now i go out,i thought meeting them awile then they say want go bukit batok nature park..i follow arh..so we go nature park,like normal arh..lepak3 aje..we see how people fish there,how people cycle there,how boy play with toy boat..haha..very shiok sia..eventhough naturepark dont have anything..

SAYANG!!

I LOVE YOU!!

0NLI YOU LAH..

4 EVA

hmm..i miss you lah sei..

everyday keep thinking bout you=(

holiday can only see you once oni..

hope can see you soon..

on monday?after ur pds..hope can..

hmm..today boring,no one msg me..so nothing to do i go out lh..go woodland..again?no place to go wat..buy anggun?yeah2..so i meet ahmad at solihin house then go inside,do wat?roll paper i guess..and then we plan go watch movie lh,paranormal activity,but it is n16 so we dont watch arh..after that we go solihin house back..we prank people,i prank 1 siling girlshe said wanna call the polis..haha..sit there until 4 then go ahmad house coz solihin gonna have tuition..otw ahmad house,got eurasion people kissing..haha..then go ahmad house pray..u know wat?when i going home,ahmad folllow me,we see them still kissing..like wtf?!howlong does they need to kiss each other..haha..then go home..now at home do nothing..i want msg her..but im scared..hmm..she never msg me nowadays=(

heylo..let talk about today..so today actually want to go marsling,but got something on so cannot go lh..after that,i meet burhan at 290 near the rc..then we wait arafat come,after that talhah came..then wafa come also..he just come he must go home,he take ball..haha..then we go play monkey,wah so long never play monkey..play with hisham and zakir also..haha..then suddenly rain,very nice,we sit at 290g,me and burhan sit and get wet even though we are inside the building..1 thing funny is,talz hid himself behind a pillar coz he to cold..haha..then i ask burhan cold or not,and i see his mouth shake already..then my body slowly shivering sia..and they play2 even in the rain..after that i meet someone,haha..very funny sia..u know,bcoz of raining got no place to sit..then got one small place,we go there arh,then i ask her sit she dont want..so i go sit arh..then got abit more space wat,so i as her sit,and she sit..haha..we both cramp at one place..luckily she very small..if not cannot sit one..then we sit there for so long,talk2 only..alot of thing arh we talk..i used alot of my brain power to think..zzz..i everytime no idea what to talk about..then after so long we went home..before went home we take picture arh..then say goodbye..

haizz..i miss you=(

and

i love you..

i dont know how to put utube video iinside here,so i download it and upload it here..this videa my fren show me..and quiet cute lh so enjoy..

today very boring..no one msg me..cannot go out some more..only go religious class..today at home play sudden sttach and listen to music oni..wat music?simple plan arh..i like that band i guess...haha..

friends..long time never see..

haha..today i cannot take it arh..funny like hell sial..one of my primary school fren,who already transfer to a secondary school..he is in pioneer sec..haha..his nickname last time was wildboar..he very kind lh..very the alim dulu..now he like teach me about love all shit..haha..long time never see him..miss him lh sia..he is the guy who always protect people during primary school..when i see him,i wanna kick his ass..and hug him?nah,not my type..

this is what he fucking say:

'no matter wat,put ur gf first..treather well..dont be impatient,take ur time.&one more thing ue must give her some space of freedom,dont always pester her..

must really take care of her..love her sincerely..and cherish her..

must care abt her.if she ask u help her go n do it..be with her all the time'

haha..this is fucking different..he changed..last time he will say to me something like'jangan main catching dalam class lh'or'astaugfirullah,dah solat lom'or'dont fight lh'..now he more pro..haha..good lh..want see him..

hafizh(keling)hisham(tahu goreng)

and ytd i chat with hafizh,he still scooling at irsyad..haha..he my fighting partner during our primary school..haizz..his attitude still havent change..still like child..and as always,funny..yeah..long time we no fight..next time i see u,i gonna make u bleed like hell..haha..c you soon guys..almost 2 year never see..so long..

this feeling is like last time..

im scared..

i really love her..

fuck?

today i meet ahmad and solihin,at marsling..go ahmad house first..then go shop buy something..after that go yishun..we go tthere just to play lan sia..haha..we play cs with i dont know who..then we go back ahmad house..i go back there coz i nid to pray..and thenn i go home..


today i knew two thing,two thing that i wish i dont know at all..haizz..why everytime like this..i just now after went home talk to someone..he tell me something..he said to me wat happen.. haizz..why if i ask everytthing cannot?but if other people,like can only..just now i want meet also cannot..then meet other people can arh?..other people more important than me...

wo ai nurai yi sheng yi shi

i only love one person
and will only love that person
my love for you getting stronger
somehow i feel like u are mine only,
am i selfish to think that way?
i dont wanna lose you,
it hurt losing u,
crying like a pathetic loser,
that y i dont wanna lose u again
to love you forever,
that wat i had promised to you
it'll not be just empty promises
coz every single day,
that promises run through my mind


sayang i really love you
i think loving u is the best thing i've done
never regret being with you once again
sayang,
i want share my tears , smile
with you,
only you

i love you

i feel like dying..=.=

headache like siao..

fever again..haizz..

thanawi 3B macam sial

this is wat happen to 'their' exam paper

early in the morning at 8 got religious class..and today is exam..okay as perusual i hate my class coz all of them is sec 3 and above..and you know because of them i dont concentrate on my exam paper..sialah..i keep laughiing coz they make stupid thiing..got on boi infront of me,sec 3 i think,we doing exam then he make his exAM paper into airplane..then he fly it around..crazy sia..got one also..after they eat,their rubbish they put at plastic back which is used to clean up the dead people,'kain kapan nye plastic bag'..obbviously lh i will laugh..cb they sec 3 already,next year will be sec4 attitude like primary school sia..stupid sia,exam then ask teacher to tell the answer..haha..i gonna drop for my religious school confrim one..

okay im feeling a bit better now..still got flu..haizz..tomorow got school..i think i want meet someone tomoorow..i hope can lorh..

sickfeversickfeversick

bye to yujia..who going to change school..gonna miss the fun i had with you..

first of all i want to say goodbye to my 2e4 frens..coz some of them gonna transfer school and i wont be in the same class as most of you..it was nice knowing all of you..i hope next year gonna get good2 classmate,i hope it's u guys..




i sick today..it all because of something that make me sad..im sad for some reason,i just dont wanna say it..yeah and after sadness i feel headache..my head very pain..and i got fever after that..if im not sad,i wont have fever one..haizz..thanks to my dad for putting cold towel on my body,now i feel abit okay..

wat am i to you?

how do you actuallly treat me?

they better than me,right?

do u know how i feel?

am i jealous?yeah?

am i patience enough?maybe?

strong to face anything?

die...

i just feels like getting stab,

my heart seriously pain,

i know it is only my feeling,

feeling of jealousy?yeah maybe..

trust and trust and trust,

so i wont have this feeling again..

hope the feeling will vanished,

and i can be happy again.

to-name-:i love you sygg..

unlucky day..haiya..

kay so today early in the morning forgot bring something..so cannot do wat i want arh..then in the morning teacher ask to stand during assembly,coz never bring wat form lh..so i stand arh..very paiseh..then after school lepak..and soomething bad happen..asshole..we kena screening or some shit..dont know wat..bad luck i can say..and yeah msg some one the that people go sleepp..bad luck also i guess..


wahhaha today actually not so unlucky arh..coz morning i meet someone..haizz..i very happy..then,on geography class..i come in class whole time msging some one..and then we meet..and we talk2..haha..very happy oi can see her sitting next to me..haha..but then those asshole throw my bag insiide girl toilet..cb..make me ps..infront of her somemore..today 3 time bag go in girl toilet..haha..

hey morning..hmm yesterday and today i chat with people arh..hohoho..damn fun you know..we talk as if we dont know each other haha..like crazy sia..i hope we can get closer..i want to know you better..and to understand u even more so i wont do anything wrong agaiin in the future..haha..kay..lame..


today maybe going out at 5 plus arh..meeting jordan mayybe..haizz very boring..bile lh mau jumpe..exam dah abis dah,result pun dah dpt..next week lazy come school..but i want see some people,so i think going school..i scared next week got scolded by teacher..haizzz..hope never get scolded..i just remember wat i said to npcc teacher when she called me ytd..i die next week..

to tell u i love you

to that someone if you read this,

i want to show u how much i love you,

i'll love you forever and ever

im sorry if i had done anything wrong

i really regret wat i had done to you,

before

so today after school went prayers..then play soccer with yujia,chris,jordan..i come they play already..so i join arh,we play shot inside the hole..kay this one i always shot go in one,very pro.chey no lh,tyco only..then we buy water,sit2 near the playground that is near the shop..after that play soccer again,this time we play the emporer..one people sit at the badminton court sit thingy..then must aim at the one sitting..that one also,i damn pro..haha..i hit jordan and yujia..never hit chris..then we stop playing coz someone afraid of height and dont wan sit at the chair..we sit2 and chris start doing the sand thingy..haha..then he do arh..i see2..then go home..

i still not happy

so you guys see my bag already and u guys know already right..kay im sorry eh..i dont know why i do that,just feel like doing..i very sorry to jordan..it not that i want to lie or wat arh..dont worry be happy..and dont pauto to anyone..kay keep this maatter to urself..

hmm..i want to say sorry..

actually i really trust u,i guess.

if i keep ask u question,im sorry.

just feel like asking,especially when indoubt,

if u want time i'll give you,

hope everything will be like last time.

yeah,still got one people im not happy with..from last time i not happy with him..he is not my friend obviously..if seriously next time u make me damn angry i wont hold back hitting u..'pecah arh lu punya muke'..chey i not so bad..






im very sad,because u say u treat me likee a stranger...it really hurt me..haizz..

lepaklepaklepak

today early in the morning meet chris,we both go imm..to buy thing for some one..haha..btw thanks..and sorry waste time there,all u want do there cannot..coz of me..haha..after that went home put the thing go pray then go out again..this time with shukry and his friends..okay,first go westmall then take 106 go orchad..when we first arived at orchad haha got one shop very funny the name..and then we walk2 at there do nothing..wah i have so much fun with them,all of them is funny..hope can go out with u guys again..and after that shukry say want eat at westmmall,so we from orchad go westmall lorh..then 'eheheheh' i meet some one..wah..i damn2 happy like hell..then we all go pastamania..talk2 down there..bbut i dont really talk,i laugh a lot..haha..very funny sia they all..and thanks coz u go home together with me..i very3 happy..hope can see you tomorow..



tomorow is the day,
i wish you in advance




















nuraii

chatchatchat

heys..let talk about yesterday..so yesterday at night,i chat with 2 funny people..both of them very funny lurh..verlynn,i chat with you so longlong..u very funny leh..at first you are 'idontknow' then u my big sister then u my small sister then suddenly u my grandmother..haha..then we talkk about sentence to death lh,go court lh..hahah..next time chat with me again hor..

yeah got one more people i chat with,i msn with you quiet long,it is nice chatting with you,you really make me happy the whole night,thank you..i really cannot believe u really scared of ghost..haha..next time i telll u ghost story at night..and yeah,one more thing i want to say,watever i say always is coreect arh..so if i say u pretty or wat,means u are one..hooohoohoo..

today,i want watch

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today last day exam,very fun..after school lepak with burhan all that..then go home and play ofcoz..okay today was just like other day,but today was bit fuun i guess..yeah seriously my head is going crazy..haha..

today very sad,actually everyday sad for me,fuucker if i know i wont cut my hair..first of all is my cousin arh,he everytime laugh if cut hair but i dont really care..but got one girl from n/acad,she asked me'what happen to your hair'..wah..i thought she talking to chris..she said like so bad sia..zzz..very sad...

falling effect..really hurt..head go crazy..

if you fall down how will you feel?

obviously,pain is what you feel

that is how my heart feel right now

the feeling of falling in love nice

the feeling of breaking up is,maybe like hell(for me)

having friends by ur side is good

but you need to find the right friend

lately we are getting closer right?do you feel it

maybe it is because we are the same

i feel that being with u guys is wonderful

playing duel masters together

it make me remember the time when we used to play

when we were in primary school

u guys are the best friend,

hope we can spent more time together..

lately my body has become weak..

each time i take,

my body will lost control

my head gonna be like going 'aaarrrrhhh'

dont know why..

but i think,im getting weaker..

need to be stronger

do what i supposed to do

stoped what i am not supossed to do..

i really love her,and hope can be with her again..

wah piang eh..i cut my hair today..fuck sia..haizz..if mr lim never see i wont cut one..so ytd i go out with ahmad[picture] and solihin,we go irsyad teacher house..haizz i cant stop thingkiing bout my past..everything have changed now..everything..i used to laugh a lot last time but now not anymore..i used to smile even when im sad but now,cry when im sad..

once again,im fcuking confused..

why must life be so complicated..

i thought that i can forget her,but

after reading her blogg

i get really confused..

i keep changing my mind,

i doont have the right answer

the answer that im still fiinding

is there really hope for me,

to be with her?

i dont know

everything sucks

i read someone blog,and now i think
im not gonna wait for her anymore
even if i wait,i know there is no chance
for us to be together again
i really regret,asking her break up
coz now i must forgot her
and maybe it gonna take times


now im a different person already
dont know why,but i just know i change
alot
i really really dont want be bad guy,
want to be good person
haizz..again..my life sux ass..


continue with my life,
concentrate study first,
then can think of different thhing

i hurt my ankle yesterday..trying to do something..i guess it takes days to rrecover..so must be patient..today got religious class,early in the morning..i lazy go but must go coz a lot of time never go..i hate go that class..im the only person that is sec2..the rest is all sec 3 and above..some more they all want step gangster..religious class i in sec 3 level so no friend..haizz..nvm..1 more year and it over..


i'll think carefully,
and make my decision,
hope it's the right one.
haha..


i'm always suck at making the right decision,i take thing not seriously..most of the matter is a joke to me..even breaking my arm,is a joke to me..just hope this time make the right choice..

maybe i should move on,carry on with my life..

i still love her but,will she still love me?

even if i wait,week,month,year,

i dont know if she will come back to me..

she is not mine anymore..

maybe,

she can never be mine again..

bit by bit,i know she wont have feeling for me anymore..

if i can wish for one thing,

i want to be with you again,

thats all,

i really hope i can be with you

somedays,i hope so..

[someone] say to me,

waiting for a girl is not worth it,

he said people who wait is like a 'love slave'

but i think it is not wrong waiting

for the one we love..

i really love her,

and i dont think waitiing for her make me a slave,

hmm..nvm..now exam time..after exam then i'll think back about this..

good luck to everyone..

it is closer
than a friend
but far
from love




i miss you

even if it takes days,weeks,months or years

girls toilet,i take the picture..wahhaaha..(=

i wont cry anymore,

coz i know the reason,

i know everything,

im not confused anymore,

i've got the answer,

that i've been searching for,

now,waiting patiently,

that the only thing i can do,

hope one day,

someday maybe,

you will come baack to me,

you'll accept me again,

days,weeks,months,years,
i'll wait no matter what,
just for you to come back to me,
i'll never forgot our promised.

now what?

which one should i believe?
i stuck in the middle
no one helping me
im not strong to make desicion
nurai or dorcas?
what dorcas say got some right
but what nurai say make me confused
once again
i dont know anything better right now
keep crying
if what nurai say is right,
i really wish i can be with her again
just once more,
i really love her..

i know the answer..

now i know everything..
i dont know why?
i am starting to regret..
regret that i love you..
i just wish that i could forget you,
someday,hope sooner..
i hope you gonna be happy now..

i wish i dont know you at all..

im confused

                                                        sister,sister,sister,me at grandpa house

morning i wake up at 3.40 in the morning..and i ---..im sorry if i disturb you guys early in the morning..anyway thanks lester.,coz u wake up for me..im sorry if i wake u up in the middle of your sleep..i just dont know what to do especially there is nothing to do in the morning..


today after school,go pray,after pray,play soccer with fren and my cousin..yujia make me laugh the most..it been long time since we play2 together..after that me and chris go westmall,coz i need buy thing for someone..then we go home..now i blogging,and watching south park..

i miss you.,i cant live without you,i need you

i cant live without you

please dont leave me sygg..
i love you very2 much..
so please..love me like how i love you..
i dont wanna lose you..
seriously..



if you dont love me anymore,
it's okay..just tell me the truth..
=(

i miss you sygg

ytd..i go out with sayang..we go jurong point walk2..im sorry if boring kay..the whole time i look at her face,she was damn gorgeous..and we go home at around 4.15 if im not wrong..i reallyreallyreallyreally love you sayang..seriously..and now i miss you super duper damn much..anyway thanks for making me happy ytd kay sygg..

so today was not so good,i dont know whether i got mother tongue or not,so i dont go..if my cousin are there confrim he also dont come mt..then i sit with chris during mt..chris say got people staring at us..wah that guy stare at us so long leh..but i too scared to stare back..

now i waiting for her msg..hope she msg me..i miss her a lot..

today is fcuk man

so today was like wtf?!

morning i go school with my sygg and on the way,i'm very sad coz something happen..haizz..today meet her quiet a lot of time..

biology class..lester ask me to shout 'I LOVE ---' in class very loud right..i got my self in real trouble..

me:I lOVE ---...

miss kala:i dont want to know about ur --- life..

then i was like arh shit everyone looking at me and was staring at me..teacher heard it as well..im dead..seriously..that what i thought arh..

miss kala:if you want i send you to ms lim(something like that arh she said to me)

thanks to my friend i almost die..

english class..i was msging my sygg..then suddenly teacher come near me..and i slowly put in back my phone in my pocket..teacher saw it and he took my phone..i was so unlucky sia..

miss ong:is msg so important that you dont do my work

me:yeah of coz

miss ong:what so important

me:...

miss ong:see you cannot answer

me:..

miss ong:you want me to check what you msging is it

then i was like,ouh dont read any of my msg,coz in my inbox there is only my sygg msg..if she read i die..

okay form tomorow onward,i want to change..i want to study hard..dont want play2 anymore..

bombbombbomb

hey..kay,let talk about yesterday..ytd was damn fun..i go saifuddin house,with solihin..and we play2 for long2..i reach home at 11.45 almost reach 12 at night..before i go home they tell me about ghost,make me scared..lucky no ghost..so we do 'bomb'..damn nice actually but the video graphic suck..so i have fun yesterday..after come back home,i msg2 someone arh,saifuddin cousin i think..and i msg2 with her until 1 plus.. then i said to her i wanna sleep..then i go sleep..haha..

sygg,ytd my friend hold my phone so if they msg anything weird sorry arh..

tell me..tell me things that i dont know..

today,i got class but gonna come late at 4..and she said she also need to come,but dont know yet she coming or not..now sitting at home do nothing..later meeting yujia awhile..and maybe today must go home around 9.15..must pray at mosque..

ytd night is very not good day for me..seriously..i feel like crying..you cannot promised that u wont leave me..haizz..mean that surely,but dont know when,u will leave me..i wish i could do something to help..help with all the problem..and hope u tell me everything..tell me things that i dont know..

i seriously love you and i dont wanna lose you..
no matter what i want us to be together,forever..

today very good..malay lesson was supposed to come,but only me and my cousin never go..hope no one pauto..we escape mt..yeah..we sit with chris and play card trick..both chris and him dman funny sia..toay was really fun seriously..but im not happy for some reason..i dont know why iim not happy..so me chris and jordan sing2 song at the class like crazy people..haha..nice2..and i dont liike my form teacher..dont wan say the name..not my english teacher arh,english teacher is good..

ahmad and me,actually got one more people

yi and nv

today teacher day..damn shiok..i go my primary school aat braddell,very far,'al-irsyad'..i come with solihin and ahmad saifudin,we meet at woodland then go the school..when i first go the mosque i saw food,i hungry leh..haha..then go meet friend and then greet some teacher..got lot people remember me..that good..then go home,go woodland awile,i buy yoyo,very lame..damn fun,i play with my friend..then after that we go home..and now i blogging..i really2 miss my irsyadian friend seriously..

just now got the song fall for you sia..later at night i wan ask whether she cry or not..if she cry then,that mean she stiill got feeling fofr that someone..if she dont cry then i happpy like madd..

heilow..today morning at 8 got madrasah..very boring..i dont like go madrasah bcoz,i am the only sec 2 who are in the sec3 class..like what the hell,all people down there look like gangster..if i know i want be sec 2 this year..

so today later going out,dont know where,with my fren..damn tired..ytd i go ask her about something,wah now i damn scared..i scared she want a 'bu'..haizz..ytd william bday..i want meet irsyad people sooner,coz i wanna buy thing with them..

__________

to somebody,

i'm very sorry coz i dont trust you.

it not that i dont wanna trust u,

it just that it hard for me to trust you,

and i already try my hard to trust you,

just give me time kay.

but no matter what i'll always love you,

and that the truth.

i love you a lot.

brokenarmboi

twentynine.eight.zeroeight:

hmm..1 year past already..the day full of regret..haizz..if only i could avoid it,i will not be brokenarm..last year 29 august,was william bday,n teacher day celebration..i make 2 important promiised on that day..i promised my irsyad friend that i will come their school and pray there..and i also promised william that i'll come to his bday celebration..but i never do as i promised..it was bcoz of some mistake,i stay in the hospital for 3 days..and i dont fullfil any of my promises..

ytd is fun you know..me and her meet at the place full of memory..the place where we parkour..and the place where last time i meet her to talk to her..and yeah i was so happy like hell..it been a long time since we spent time together..i was like damn happy..but can only see her for awile..but nvm..

today,morning before i go pray i sms her..ask whether can go school together or not..then she said okay..on the way to the playground,i see dorcas..alamak,i feel guilty sia..dorcas walk alone..bcoz it was raining so i said i wait at the lift..but suddenly i forgot where is to go her house so i wait at the playground..haizz..maybe i stm,same like her..haha..

yeah our class win the english thingy competition..her class got 3rd,it's okay..wah damn ps sia just now..but after win happy arh of coz..

haizz..i miss her..i love u alot sygg..seriously

parkour parkour parkour

almost 1 month,and i miss it like hell.i dont like flip all that.what i like in parkour is, vaulting and climbing.i miss parkour.but now i'm scared to do.somedays maybe i'll try it again.it have been a really great sports.

i miss you sygg,damn much.everyday i kept thinking of you.how i wish i could be with you every single minit.i hope we can spent more time together sygg.

ily,sygg =)

'to trust is to love'

tuesday,i tell my friend to trust me in what i do..and i tell them friendship need trust..but then today,i just realised something..i lack of trusting you nurai..im really2 sorry..i know now i'm wrong coz i never trust you,but trust me,i really2 love you..after u send me msg and say 'to trust is to love' i really feel very guilty..i;m sorry nurai..really2 sorry..i dont care waht she want do with me,what i want is she forgive me..

i having a bad day today..first of all i got scolded by mr adam,i sick and,she never rep my msg..

mr adam scold me coz of the assembly thingy,and he said bout my primary school being a good school and want me to show good attitude as i learn religious things in my primary school..lucky he scold very short..so he still rememeber i come from waht primary school..
i got headache..haizz..
she never reply any of my msg..i also dont know why..haiya my life very complicated..everyday very not good day for me..

trust is important

IS IT HARD TO TRUST PEOPLE?


haizz..i know u guys love me alot..i know u guys wan the best from me..but i just want one thing from u guys,i want u guys to believed in me instead of doing thing forcefully..next time i want u guys to trust me more..are my face that hard to believed?im damn sad,seriously damn sad coz no one believed in me just now,not even my 'brothers'..what i said is truly from the deep of my heart..the more u guys dont believe in me,the more i felt like i cannot be trusted,and the more i'll do thing in a bad way..so please..next time try understand a person..i really love you guys,seriously..and i trust u guys,hope what u do just now is the best thing..anyway..thanks..thanks for eveything..thanks for not trusting in me.. =( i wont do again..

today i'm sick..i got stomache cramp..and i also feel like vommiting coz i feel headache..today so boring..each and everyday life kept geetting boring..i want msg that someone but i feel scared to msg..haizz..i dont know what should i do..now watching southpark..watching it make me damn dizzy..but it's cool..i like the part they say"you kill kenny.you bastard!"haha..damn nice..

today is my 3 month with her..yeah i feel like im happy..
yesterday night at 12 oclock i already msg her..
i scared she gonna leave me sia..
haiz nvm..i keep trusting her and keep believeing in her..
hope we can last long..



today talk to ahmad one of my irsyad fren,he one of my bestfriend in irsyad.i used to fight with him alot during my primary shcool time..haizz..now im in yusof ishak,he in northview..we both have choose the same path..yeah we choosen the academic..for me i choose academic coz my ukhrawi suck..for him i dont know..yeah and just now we talk bisness..he damn funny sia..

hisham:ahmad,steng2 arh..amacam?(mean spread into half)
ahmad:dah pokai lh(now no money)
hisham:k lh.kt 10 awk 3.(i 10 u 3)
ahmad:bley arh(can arh)

so at last we stop talking.and he link me one ghost story.he said funny but i too scared to watch..tomorow got class..boring..

haizz..i fail..im sad..

haizz..today is friday and friday is today..go friday prayers then go npcc..i'm forced to go coz miss tey confiscated my ezlink card=(so go npcc..and we have our promotion test..i think i fail,coz when we were having a promotion test i almost vomit and i got sstomache cramp..damn pain sia my stomache..my cousin tell the one incharge and yeah i got to sit down..i sit down and nvr take the promotion tesst..haiya next week is retest hope i pass..at school me and my cousin escape from teacher and npcc thingy,we run2 around the school,damn fcuking nice..but we ended up going home late..

now at home still got stamache cramp..cb pain..some more weichong go slap my stomache just now..and he slap my face more thhen 4 times..i gonna slap his balls on monday if he have one lh..and now at home do nothing..i guess i watching southpark lateron..





hmmphh..so it is on the 12 midnight arh..then it will be 3 month..but from yesterday she neveer msg me..i'm super duper damn sad..haizz..i miss her so much..i hope she will msg me later..i really hope..if she not msging then im really really really sad..=(..





hope you msg me tonight,coz that is my only wish for today.love u sygg.